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I wasn’t being too picky, I just refused to settle.And so it went on – until a three-month fling fell apart, and my friend made her fateful statement.Now falling in love didn’t need to be overwhelming and frightening.Fast-forward 18 months and we’d bought a house together. Within weeks of moving in, I found myself crying with happiness as I held a positive pregnancy test in my hand.We tried being just friends, then friends with benefits and then finally an item.That lasted about a week until he emailed me on Christmas morning to say he never wanted to see me again. In a bid to forget about Harry, I returned to online dating with renewed determination.Behind the ‘strong woman’ the outside world saw was one secretly crippled with loneliness, heartbreak and bitterness.
Instead, I unravelled where my emotional pain lay and how it affected my decisions. People who have had to cope with big traumas in their lives become emotionally unavailable as a coping mechanism.So I tried speed dating, but decided it wasn’t for me. Well-meaning friends reassured me ‘weak’ men are never attracted to ‘strong’ women. The biggest shift Months of dating turned into years. The very ground I walked on felt irreparably shifted when I left my dad dead in that hospital bed. I lost weight and months passed in an empty numbness.Then, feeling brave one evening, I wrote up an internet dating profile. He’d always been my greatest cheerleader and my port in a storm. Feeling more alone than ever, I threw myself back into life as a working single mother – and back into the dating pond.Later, he told me he didn’t want a relationship, but wanted to see me again. After each date, Harry ignored me for days before apologising.Then I would ignore him back, but he refused to leave me alone.